Hello Steve,
I am glad to be writing to you for the first time. I have always watched your videos on YouTube and read some of your writings online.
My experience was very intense and detailed. However, I will like to just give a summary.
For over twenty years I suffered from severe gamophobia. That was when I was a teenager and begun getting aware that I will one day grow up and get married and will have to live with that woman for the rest of my live. I felt a sense of imprisonment. Since then, the hear of even just the word “marriage” or “engagement” brought me some deep irritation fear and shivers. It was so strong that it could run through my body from my head down to my legs. As a result I have always avoided conversations about marriage and such related activities.
I am originally from Ghana, in west Africa. I am from a polygamous family. At about fourteen years, I was taken from my biological mother to stay with my stepmother in a different city. I have always witnessed my father and my stepmother quarrel seriously, almost on daily basis. Moreover, my father was extremely dictatorial and and very oppressive. What made matters worse was my senior brothers were equally very bossy, tyrannical and imposition. I could remember when I completed secondary school, my elder brothers bought teacher training college form, filled it and even put my signature on it a submitted, without any regard to whether I have interest in teaching profession or not. A typical African community where the elderly is always right and knows best. A person wins a case in traditional court not by virtue of evidence but by virtue of his or her age. I have never witnessed a genuinely happy marriage, family or home. Eventually I had always lived in intense fear and timidity which I think could be traced to my background.
At 34 years of age, I decided to psychologically fight and overcome my fears and get marry. In an attempt, I was intentionally deceived and misled a close friend I trusted so much into marry a lady I didn’t know. The friend immediately started teasing and laughing at me and subsequently cut our friendship. I was later told my close friend friend knew some vital negative information about the lady and withheld them from you. Rather, he convinced and encouraged you to get into it. I felt painful entrapped and betrayed.
This started a traumatic moment in my life. At the pick of the trauma I came across a self empowerment book which I had very great an explainable inspection to read for three years.
The vividly explained exactly what happened to me. Since then I have always experienced manifestations of the book, my thoughts and feelings. I almost always realize my hart desire and great synchronicities keep manifesting.
Any deliberate attempt to achieve something almost always fails. Things always come to me without much or any effort. I feel like surrendering and I have almost surrendered to nature. For it has never failed me.
I am getting inspired to write a book.
