You feel restless and uneasy, but don’t know why.
No matter how many ambitions you fulfil
no matter how many desires you satisfy
frustration never seems to fade away
contentment always seems to elude you.
But trace your desires back to their source –
no matter how they disguise themselves,
and even if they’re so misdirected that they take you further away from their goal,
at the heart of every desire is a yearning for oneness,
or an impulse to escape a sense of lack.
You don’t really want power, success, wealth or pleasure –
deep down, your soul aches to be reunited with the world.
This is the real source of your frustration –
not because you haven’t achieved enough
not because you’re being deprived of what’s rightfully yours
not because you’re being plagued by misfortune
but because you were never meant to be separate, trapped inside yourself.
You’re misreading the signals, choosing wrong solutions,
or else devising clever strategies
to try to distract yourself from the pain of separation
which just reinforce your separation, and intensify your original frustration.
Your deepest drive is to expand outside yourself
to slip through the net which is tightly wound around your mind
and stretch and spread through space, beyond separateness
to embrace the world, to enfold and absorb her vastness
and become part of her oneness.
And there’s no need to be timid, or to suppress your desire
because the world wants to absorb you too.
She feels your absence, senses your unease.
She’s reaching out to you, as you are to her.
She’s pulling you towards her, with electric currents of desire,
with a soft magnetic radiance that shimmers through the space between you.
She’s sending subtle signals, chemical messages that say:
we belong to each other.
And now you know the real nature of your desire
you’ll no longer be diverted or deceived
and a time will surely come
when boundaries melt away, and individuality dissolves
and your soul returns home, and merges with the world –
an ecstatic marriage, a timeless consummation
in which all desires disappear, and all frustration fades away.